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Will It End?

October 15, 2015

IMG_20110116_080718I found this post in my drafts from this summer. I remember the night walking home and just how terrified I was. The rest of the lows don’t stick out in my mind, but a pattern of lows never makes me feel good. I am not experiencing this crazy amount of lows anymore, and based on my safety, I am grateful for that. I do not know at what point this stopped or when I started feeling better. 

It started on the way home from seeing my friends. I was low before I left, but I had some glucose and assumed I was fine. By the time I got near my apartment, I was dropping and dropping and dropping and I had run out of sugar. I had this fear of collapsing and needing glucagon (not that it was in my purse) before I got to my apartment. I walked in and had drank multiple Big Bird juice boxes. I woke up low in the middle of the night. Had more juice. Ate fruit and fruit and crackers (I think) and more fruit without bolusing the next day. And the day after that. And the day after that. And then I was low nearly all of Friday night. I had plans for Saturday which didn’t happen. I didn’t walk for coffee for fear of going low. I don’t often let diabetes fear control my life. But I did. How long will it last? How many times will it interfere in my life? Will it make me scared to be alone? I don’t want to feel like this.

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  1. October 16, 2015 4:06 PM

    Been there. I hope we can get to a point where no one, including you, has to deal with this ever again.

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