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Drained

January 9, 2014
Joslin

Joslin

I sat down in the waiting room with my bagel and bolused. I enjoyed it’s deliciousness and then started to feel low. I was out of test strips, but knew I’d be tested soon when I went to the lab. She tested my blood sugar and it was 55. “I’ll get you juice after I take your blood.” I wanted it immediately, but was too dumbfounded to ask for it. (She also spoke in double negatives driving me MENTAL.) As she got ready to do the blood draw, I just started crying. Yes, I swear I’m an adult. I hate the blood draw, combined with the low blood sugar, and it just equaled all the tears! I finished in the lab, then had to be taken to be tested again, where I was 141. I was still feeling a residual low though, because I didn’t hear my endo say Briley at all. She ended up walking out and tapping me on the shoulder. (I was listening for my last name, not first.) She asked a few questions to start. How was I feeling? How did the half marathon go? Do you want to do it again? Do you have any questions or problems?

I love how much she remembers/pays attention to life outside of the office. At which point I responded “WE NEED TO FIX THE LOWS!” She looked over my numbers and said wow. I know it’s only been a week, but this is the biggest problem I’m facing right now. We changed my sensitivity factor in the morning, and adjusted my lunch time bolus so that it won’t change if I have a late lunch. I am hoping this solves my current problems. I also had to ask her to check my legs for scar tissue. Yes, it’s there. This is not surprising to me, BUT, I already have scar tissue on my arms and on the top of my thighs now. I’ve “only” had diabetes for 24 years, and I have a whole lot more life to live. Am I susceptible to scar tissue? Is there going to be a time when all of my sites have scar tissue? What then?!

We also talked about my Dexcom sites. I explained how I had it placed on my butt over vacation, but while I was skiing it always felt like I was being pinched. It was incredibly accurate though. We talked about “off-market” placement, and then I explained how I’m also limited because of water polo. She laughed about how my lifestyle makes Dexcom sites much more difficult. (Dexcom sensors can be placed where there is scar tissue, since there is no absorption needed. I still find it less accurate though.) She asked if I tried my arms, and I’ve never been successful inserting it by myself, and I don’t have anyone who can regularly help me with it.

We finished, went over my lab results that were in. My A1C has gone up to 6.9, but I’m still pleased with the results. I’m even more pleased because I don’t feel like I’m on a roller coaster like I did last time. My good cholesterol is low, and I’m pretty sure she said red wine can raise it (too bad I don’t like red wine). This is not new though, and likely hereditary. As I was getting ready to leave she said, “I saw you on Kerri’s blog. You did a really nice job!” I was really excited to know that she saw the advocacy effort I am most proud of. All in all it was a good appointment.

Yet here I sit completely drained and not wanting anything to do with diabetes.

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2 Comments leave one →
  1. January 9, 2014 3:49 PM

    This post reminds me of the position I was in back in August. In terms of my A1C, I was doing well; however, going low every single day was taking its toll on me. I felt completely drained. Unfortunately, I became burned out. I’m glad to hear that you’re taking a more aggressive approach to dealing with them.

    So long as you hang in there, things will get better. Fortunately, you have this blog on which to vent (if need be). I’m sure that your other readers won’t mind if you do so.

  2. January 10, 2014 10:21 AM

    Isn’t it nice when our healthcare team gets it too?

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